it's been two months since i came back home in Medan. plans were not as previously planned. and life has apparently began to shift its course towards the way i never expected before. it's weird to start looking your previous courses of past incidences and beginning to be hinted to see it differently now (i feel old though). and compare that to some kids nowadays that would've probably known these earlier and get treated better. But somehow i guess that's just a tease--to think that way. because it feels so right to understand it the way it is now, yet somehow it gets me insecure, as it probably just a phase where you're about to begin another new course of life.
I'm technically officially 'unemployed' --the term which doubt the state of mind of a free man, which also describe the definitively blue collared world. For now, the mission is (not to save the world, hehe) to overlook the possibilities of what might be the best thing to do (or, to pursue), which incorporates the meanings gained from previous incidences. Looking at the scenes now, there's nothing more reassuring than being a businessman, gaining wealth, to prospere ownself, and hopefully be the medium for others' prosperity too and opening other chances. Coming here, and seeing apparent 'reasons' somewhat opens (closes) possibilities that here may be it (thus there may be not) . which later lead to the 'what' question, which doubtly give more assurance.
one thing though, despite the region is known for its recklessness, on business side, this area is thriving peacefully, it's like no matter how much good there is, there's always people buying it, or that no one gets too poor, as there's always good man helping out. All praise be to God if this is what happens. And prices are reasonably good. the food especially. you'll taste less food with MSGs sold. you'll find more of a mother/daughter/family of a working man cooking their best recipe, with good ingredients, with probably less margin in profit, but more enthusiasm in preparing their food. hence the reasonably good price. It's just that, observing how things were, here, everything has a tendency to be -quote unquote- seasonal. only those who gain the best product+service+price survive. the rest are mostly late comers, or followers. but the competition somewhat had gone into a better direction, a positive non-violent co-existence. although it might need a bit more time before it is proven to be called so, the progress are way better. I'm sensing an ending to Javacentric mind set amongst the youth, and more part-of-the-world and being-proudly-local kind-of attitude here. which i think is good, as we now will observe less about insecurity of not being more of the urbanites, but more about what's better be done to preserve the peace, within ourselves. well, this might be doubt with the fact that even those in the capital are becoming apparent followers of a-now-highly accessible 'world culture' youtube, twitter, 9Gag, and what not. might as well develop your own and directly communicates with those outside than being an adopters, though it's still easily reluctant to be marked copycats here right? bad news spread faster and more expose to what once a 'priviledge'. the culture reproduction facility.
yet again, these kind of spirits are most likely conveying more of a bad news for some of the nation-wide 'culture producer' giants. they're dwindling. as no definite recipe could carry the overall intentions, and no definite character could cater to the indefinite audience. and that the minds are now in critical mode against them. we could sense the game, the subtle messages, the role, the missions, and even further to their state of finance. But what's more important for those supporting such medium are that, this should go to a better direction. Money is better spent on research to improve product, to target less generic market, to support the local economy, to finance more on true consumer satisfaction, to gain more trust, and building performance, rather than to advertise. it is now becoming unreasonably 'expensive' as more inlets are provided than the true outcomes. I'm poised to see this from a better perspective, as some of us have become more in line with the 'Order' of universe. if you contribute more for a good cause, you'll get more to replace your expenses. if the intention is bad, the outcome are usually now perceived as bad too arent they. The audience have had enough with the (now apparent) ruling media and its intrigue. and prefer a better peaceful non tendencious way. besides, who truly 'rules'. God is.
the scene is becoming more sentimental, which means more people use their feelings more, or in other word their emotional projections to judge you. as you're getting distant, it gives more time for them to think and permanently becoming part of their attitude in the future. and if the industry is still holding on the century old theories and data and money-minded-mechanisms, somewhat we're prepared to see more national channels to merge (if not, closed down), and the flourishing of genuinely local channel/content. in a long run, hopefully, someone will flame the true spirit of nationalism, despite the diversity of localism, by igniting the true feeling of being a fellow countryman, regardless of social characters. Hopefully one day, Indonesia, will be another household name of a nation regarded with full respect whose people lives harmoniously inspiring the world to be in harmony. Indonesians, prepare.
All in all, so far, here, is good.
