To start with, this post has no other intention but only to share what might be good for its reader :)
Happy Ramadhan. Praises Be To God for once again allowing us to be in this most blessful month of the year. We surely won't waste this month doing nothing, and hopefully all of our deeds will be rewarded with the best rewards here and the hereafter.
Hmm. How should I start this... I guess some of us had undergone different childhood and upbringings. As for me, things were not as easily available as where I'm now. (Alhamdulilah) but there are things that I felt that needed to be changed. coz as people prosper, we become more eligible to be responsible for others, in this case, the needy. But, let's just don't go there yet.
This is probably part of skill. yes, not just simply somehing that is Ordered. but probably innate within you that you probably didnt realize that you're capable of. or should i say, you are not that incapable. meaning, there is Rizq Promised, Written, before your existence, and therefore, you're probably would want to try to break your mindset that you're left with nothing. As the saying goes, the more you give the more you recieve, and that thing that you give (sincerely) will Clean yourself off things that do not belong to you. But yet, somehow the past, the upbringings, somewhat sipped through and carried over to your adulthood, that is somewhat uneasy to let go.
So, let's get into this. . . As kids some of us probably had experienced this : Given some coins (or a note) of small change, then we put it into the donation box distributed prior/after the congregation prayers. and the same thing for the next friday, or other times during lebaran(s). Some of us probably still experience this up to today, that is to give exclusively only small change for donation. I still did about few years ago though. Until one day during my stay in M'sia I saw a friend who gave an amount that was abit startling to me, knowing his economic situation at that time. I noticed that he put a big note (of RM10 or about Rp30.000) into the box, whilst he himself was in a rather uneasy end-of-the-month situation. This happened few times, in several occarions before Friday prayers.
For me, it wasn't that easy to let go such amount at first, considering I may not be able to buy other things if I regularly donate my own money that much -or that I'm just not used to it- But, somewhat I'm poised to try. Starting off with whatever coins, be it 5, 10 or 50 cents. I later got used to simply grabbed whatever coins in my pocket without counting. Then, the weeks after, I gradually increased it with whatever coins and small notes in my pocket. Meaning, if there's RM 1 note, I'll give it together with the coins. RM 1 was considered valuable amount at that time, especially at the end of the month, as you could still buy decent food by adding only 20 cents (Roti Canai kosong = RM 1.20). Some months after, things started to feel different, it became very easy to give 'just like that'. I got less hesitant to put in any amount, even the bigger notes.
It wasn't just about getting myself used to it though. There was another thing that i learned from the experience . Back then, I would usually went out on the weekends, having dinner outside, going to the malls, hang out with friends or just simply go to the nearest mall (Sunway Pyramid) to do grocery shopping. During this 'self-training' session, I felt that, the urge to go out had never been that high if I donated on Friday, regardless the amount. In other events there usually wont be any spendings on unnecesary things whenever I go out. Somewhat it prevented me from purchasing other stuffs (other than what originally planned to) which I normally took during grocery shopping before.
On the days when I didnt give out though - either I forgot or managed to came up with "excuses" to not to give- I started noticing that there would be something on the weekend that would make me awfully regretful, such as buying extra pack of potato chips that would then got me sore throat, carbonated drinks which then got me gastric, new CDs that I listened only once (I copied it to my laptop afyerwards), magazines which I looked instead of read, stupid self motivational books, or other goods that appealed to the eye, but were not really necessary or not doing any good for your mind and health, if you know what i mean. It's either that or someone would ask me to go out to places that I eventually felt not taking any benefit from, other than, making me broke (including paying double charge for a midnight cab ride to return home). But then usually, it would be gone if i made it up the next day.
Later on, these experiences somehow made me think, or should I say, it came to my realization, that probably both events had somewhat cause-and-effect relationship as it kept repeating several times. Not sure how to comprehend this, but probably you want to try it yourself and see. and then tell me. I would say, this has something to do with the promised Rizq bestowed upon us as we were born. that regardless how much we give, it'll return in better ways, unexpected ways, or it'll purify ours from things that are not beneficial for us. But I dont know. God Knows. God is Great.
Rabbi zidni 'ilma(n) war zuqni fahma(n).
Again, this has no other means intended, but only to share what I thought would be good for whoever reads it.
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